Understanding...
It used to be so important to me to have people understand me...to give me the benefit of the doubt that whatever I am or I am not is ok...to pat me on my back...to stroke my ego...applaud me...recognize me...see me...be all right with all that I am, both good and bad...talk to me...listen to me...be there for me...pick up the phone when I call...get back to me...care...
But as I grow, I realize how unimportant all of that really is...what I was looking for in others is inside of me...all that I wanted is what I needed from myself...
So now I'm getting to the point where I'm just good...like, it's really ok...people don't have to be bothered with me...I realize now that everyone has their own things going on...their own priorities ...I'm allowing my confidence in God to be the confidence I have in myself...it's not always easy...but I'm learning not to make what's going on with others be what's going on with me...and I accept that what's going on with me is for me...
My Journey...My Growth...My Vision...My Life...
The dearest people to me are the ones I don't even talk to or interact with that often really...the love is unspoken but always felt...
If nothing else, all I would ask people to do, when I cross your mind, just pray for me...like, it could be a small prayer, a long prayer, a simple "Bless her, Lord...amen"
I trust God will bless and empower me to do the rest...
~ Charesse
